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How Low can you go?

Back to Introspection.

Face your vanity.

Part of what I need to deconstruct is my own narratives.  

What story am I in?

What role was assigned?

The estimation of me that comes from outside of me (projection) is determined to force me into the shape they need so that I can play the role they assigned. 

[training] In the military the shaping goal is competency, 

dedication, strength, perseverance, leadership.

This is good and grows. 

[conditioning)] I always think Pavlovian here with the bells and dogs. 

This isn’t as neutral as it seems.  (intermediate rewards) (learned helplessness) This shaping attempt should set off alarms. (bells)

[grooming] Not the hair brushing or nail clipping kind. (Pet) This shaping goal is helplessness, insecurity, inferiority, desperation, compliance, a victim mind set, and ultimately silence.

This BAD.   No gray scale here.  BAD.

It is wrong to cut someone down, prune off their strongest growth, keep them root bound, corrupt the soil to deprive the nutrients that would exist without the interference.  It is cruelly twisted to truncate a person’s growth and call it love.

It’s called arrested development.

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Mistaken Identity

This is not my first rodeo.

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UPDATE:

I almost have all the pins out.

I will tell my story.

I will speak.

I will sing. 

I will build a choir.

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