The more I am ME… 

and express My-self, my point of view, my experiences, my philosophies, coping skills, tricks I learned, places I’ve been, people I have met, new art I made, hobbies, etc.

…the more it seems to upset certain people.

As though I am not allowed to exist outside of their conception/interpretation/(biased /condemning view) of me.  

As though THEIR world(view) was The Only World.  (Remember: No One Right Way)

They claim their view/opinion/bias/deceit is the “real” world… and not projection, (vocabulary word from psychology101 and weirdly the concept illuminated on the walls of Plato’s allegorical cave. Heed warning, you can’t tell them. They can’t see it, and they will attack you if you try.) 

Somehow since early childhood I have been conditioned to make belief in my INFERIORITY. Inadequacy, imperfections, deficits, etc. (I don’t believe them.)

Seemed to be an ongoing topic when with my toxic family,

all the things going wrong for me and

how they would have done it instead >>when they spoke directly to me.

When they spoke about me in my absence… 

(or worse within my hearing, 

or

knowing it would get back to me…

from the most painful source, (someone I trusted.))

This is called SADISM.

Let’s not play around calling it something softer. 

This is a twisted and cruel torture of a person’s psyche.

Secure people don’t NEED (ego feed) to do shit like that to others.

This was pretty much everyday growing up in my toxic family, multiple times and primarily from the females/also feminist. (correlation?) 

Its almost as though they NEEDED these things to be true about me for their SUPERIORITY illusion/delusion to appear real.  

Simple really….  Not very complex. (see what I did there? inferiority/superiority complex… nvm)

Playground Rules? Nah..

Playgrounds are for people who play well with others, understand Sportsmanship, Fairness, Collaboration.

Mentally Healthy people train to be capable and functional in their lives and in the real world.

These Toxic Dynamics are outmoded.  

Update: They don’t know YOU.

They have a 1 pixel view.

What they could possibly know through such a tiny distorted 2D perspective.

You know YOU.

Your Max Resolution Exceeds all the requirements for the games You choose for yourself.

You don’t have to play their games.

None of us do.

They insist I am a pawn on their board. 

Without understanding the range of games, gameboards, game worlds, I can access. 

And without understanding the range of characters (skill sets) I can play exceptionally well.