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About the art: Made after tox-sister’s DARVO-TLDR, 2024.  I have been slowly growing my DAZ3d inventory. 

Purchasing the face poses opened up so much!

Being able to put emotion on the faces of these models, dials and toggles…slowly pulling the sneer, the contempt into place.

In my court-ordered (family) therapy 2009-2015, I was given these emotion charts to “regain access to the emotions I denied myself.”

A little less victim blaming stance might be   >>> understanding you were denied access and denied the full range of human emotions, via shame, ostracizing and punishment.  

Similar to this(above) chart… Quick google, found with teaching material.

These also come in wheels.. So you can see the emotion and it’s opposite too!

These charts stung at first, so obviously grade school.

Then it really sunk in… the ages I would have been when these emotions were toggled off for me. 

It showed me how far back those programs were installed. [I started hacking and re-scripting.]

A little less victim blaming stance might be   >>> understanding who were the main people in your life limiting your full range of emotional access…  and Socratically asking why.

Arrested development is not self imposed.  Not naturally.

Weird how it (the ‘justifications’ and argumentation)

gets all selfish and sinful once we look at perpetrator blaming.

Instead of victim blaming.

There is much my tox-family perpetrated when they were children that I “had to release” as they became “adults” (according to their rules) 

It did Nothing to heal the injuries, truncations, and rejection.

It did allow them to be unaccountable, protect the perpetrators/monsters and eventually become monsters too.  

Bringing the darkness to light would have

given all of us the truth and healing

we all needed. 

Instead my toxic sisters need these special coming out ceremonies,

with no regard for the impacts to everyone else’s lives. 

‘I am woman, hear me roar!’  moments >> reborn and clean soul now, etc…

As long as I never speak up.

As long as I remain small and ineffective.  

My whole life they NEEDED me to be miserable for them to feel good.  

>>>>  Basically what all the narcissist abuse survivors feel.

But somehow…  I wasn’t supposed to figure this out??  Come on..! That’s too absurd!!  

https://www.youtube.com/@SurvivingNarcissism

https://www.youtube.com/@patrickteahanofficial

https://www.youtube.com/@DoctorRamani

https://www.youtube.com/@thelittleshamanhealing

https://www.youtube.com/@CrappyChildhoodFairy

https://www.youtube.com/@TheraminTrees