Hello Warrior,
Another rough boss fight?
I don’t know how YOU slay your inner demons…
but I have several different methods
depending on what kind of demon is coming at me.
Tried and true: #1 NAME IT.
Otherwise you’re fighting in the dark against the unknowns.
- pro- (forth) = pronounce
- de- (down/away) = denounce
- re- (back) = renounce
- ad- (to) = announce
- e- (out) = enounce
(We don’t use enounce much anymore…)
You get quicker once you learn how to recognize the silhouette,
(Who’s that mini boss?)
You won’t need all the details to know what you’re dealing with
and how to handle it swiftly.
And
there will be much wailing and gnashing of teeth.
That’s how you know you are doing it well.
We can start with the seven deadly sins as archetypical inner demons.
Shortlist only 7 categories to memorize.
They mix like cocktails even!!
For example: lust + pride = cheating (for money) = greed (with multiples) = gluttony
See how it layers? See how it Spreads?
Let me introduce you to one of my demons.
Relationship Addiction: That sounds like, “I need them to need me.”
“Once I am good enough/pretty enough/sexy enough/smart enough/worthy…”
aka co-dependency with low self worth.
I met THAT demon trying to leave exhub1.
A: Relationship Addiction is that voice (teachings/conditioning) droning on in my head and it had me convinced for several years … even after I had every indication my relationship needs were not going to be met in that relationship. Q: Why did I stay?
Use logic for a sec…. Stretch if you have to……
If I didn’t SLAY that demon back then…
stands to reason I’d still be with that guy, right?
I renounced it. Maybe some ppl didn’t hear? Didn’t get the memo?
Should have sent out a formal announcement?
UPDATE: That demon was Slain back in 2000- 2001.
To my heroes: Give yourself Credit for what you have already conquered.
It can not destroy you again.
Recognize all the tools that worked last time you escaped the trap.
Borrow the tools from your heroes.
I’ve been showing you how to find them. Start Listening.
[BTW You have to look UP to people to have those (heroes). Be able to appreciate the work of others… etc]
(Okay I’ll spell it out… you don’t get to Grow UP
when you spend most your time
looking DOWN on Others.
It’s an insecure and immature place to be
for the majority of your day/week/
month/year/decade/lifetime…
get a clue !?)
Cite my source:
My grandmother’s best friend (Catholic(nun/deacon)) would have us visit during my summer’s stay for a week or so, usually as extra hands for fundraising events.
She gave me crayons and blank paper to draw (out) my demons. Now that you know what it is and how it hurts you can put (God’s) armor there >>> On the Spiritual wounds. I’ve known this since I was 7yrs old.
The answer has always been to grow Stronger than my demons.
My inner demons have taken me down a few times, but I am constant on the rebuild, maintenance, and improvements. Every bolt, every weld. Captain of my ship. Radical accountability IS self acceptance.
(Don’t worry Neo, nobody gets it the first time.)
Not everybody realizes when they are in a psychological battle, much less spiritual battle.
Especially when the people, places, and things are supposed to be Family, Home, and Safety, Security, Support and Love.
And
I grew up where all the people responsible for generating that/providing that/offering that are/were driven by their inner demons instead.
It’s really hard to become aware of the war/game
when you are >In The Real World< loving, open, and trusting
[the way a healthy well adjusted person might be.]
(Idk…can’t speak from exp.)(still theory so far!)
That’s what they destroy, or attempt to destroy; a human’s capacity and willingness to love, trust, grow, etc…
Be true to your Heart.
I GUARD MY HEART… it’s where my soul lives.
All my hopes, dreams, ambitions, desires.
All of my touching memories, my joy, delight, happiness.
All of my painful memories and the lessons that grew from them.
It’s what my toxic family has tried to destroy the most.
Cue the pacifying dismissal that is the norm “It’s just how they are.”
Apathy lives in the house of Sloth.
Reality check: It is NOT Acceptable.
Repeat until understood.
That’s what it is…
every time some parent/sibling/classmate/co-worker/bf/gf/bff/whoever thinks they have to take you down a notch, put you in your place…
Once you are past the shoulder angle/devil view (polarizing and moralizing) and into the overhead view (big picture) you see it better.
Detach.
Observe.
They Need You. [Not in the romantic warm fuzzy way]
In the Parasitic Feeding Way
They need you to feel like they are More than you… to feel stronger than.. A crucial point of comparison… BECAUSE their ego is so Weak…
It’s not built on anything substantial or sustainable.
To convince others of the illusion… ego projections … they show their fears by what they try to make you fear. (make belief)
I know my fears. >>>> It is not erectile dysfunction nor male pattern balding, regardless of what the Youtube algorithm thinks I’m looking for… I assure you it is not single hook ups with bored housewives in my area, anti-aging red light treatment, hair growth supplements, age spot removal, fake cologne, and fake get-em-up pills. It’s as though… I inherited someone else’s algorithm.
Off topic and I know…
but it takes a few days to get my mental health/art/
history/archeology/astronomy/geology/fossil hunters/ algorithm back.
My normal playlist…!
Then bam it’s back to insecurity-ville out of nowhere. Like it resets or something.
Be warned, any and everything can and will be used against you. The more intimate, the more damaging when they leverage your trust/dignity/love against you for their greed, laziness or entertainment.
Even the ease of accessing the things I actually like and want to watch on Youtube has social/societal bullies telling me how I am not good enough in commercials. WE should explore the word Griefing, next.
Look at that no robot. (She’s taking of the training wheels boys!!!)
Traveler Chimiru 
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