Yep. Still alive!
(Some folks are disappointed.) AND That’s fine. They can learn to live with disappointment.
Lord knows, most of us (humans on earth throughout all of hominid history) have learned how to LIVE with the world’s disappointments…
Nice being part of humanity (again) STILL.
Part-ner-ed
>>> I prefer being on humanity’s side. <<<
Being Part of
Part with
Not so good for when I am the exception.
Example: Everyone else gets rights… but because of [role/title/framed degrees] Their Entitlement crosses my rights >>> boundaries… (narcissistic entitlement… cuz non-narcissistic normal well adjusted behavior looks different. Big hint: healthy people respect boundaries.)
Somehow I am an exception and my rights/wants/needs/goals/desires/interest/wellbeing/etc… gets to be LESS and theirs gets to be MORE.
Yep, heard it before.
I wrote about it a bit earlier in the blog. Kind of where I am cognitively processing.
Infantilising, downplaying, minimizing…
We were looking at specific instances and conditioning, the effect Desired from Bullies
( cuz ppls be weird about calling those who Act Out in abusive ways “abusers.”)
So, we are looking at >> what it accomplishes. << What is the Outcome? What is the endgame?
Erasure.
The real you doesn’t exist. Their projections of you are the only thing that is ALLOWED to exist.
Example: (toxic-family, exes, bad managers, horrible team leaders, an ombudsman, several school teachers…) SEE’s You As…. [opinion, opinion, opinion, stereotype. ugly-ass-discriminatory bias, criticism (min) condemnation (max) still opinion]
Personal Note: Over and over again… Reminded.
Reminded by Strangers who have opinions about my WORTH at a glance…
Opinions about my intelligence. (Blonde.)
Opinion’s about my ease of sexual access >> from flat chested to DD over summer at the fragile age of 14 >> THUS branded indefinitely as Easy.
No Other Reason.
Just the size of them.
Nothing I do or say indicates I am about that kind of attention from Strangers.
(wrote about this in Thresholds of Discretion diatribe a half year ago. I don’t talk about my bed room activities outside of the relationship.
Big Difference between sacred space and public space.
Big difference between value and vulgar.
The year before in Safe Zone “Flat-chested Kid” then over summer PK Zone, (Player Killer explained this in earlier post too.)
The character Assumption is the first step toward character assassination.
Little peck, little cheap cheap.
Strangers Test me everywhere I go.
I can not tell you how many times in my life I have had to face a group of people I was hoping to be-friend. Then get ostracized because “I am not what/who they Thought I was.”
Not who they IMAGINED… in their own mind …… All by themselves.
My cardboard 2d pixelated cut-out was ALL they needed to KNOW (lmao….!)
Wait for the chaser…. Cuz they will Claim… they are not Shallow.
Yep… got some deep thinkin folks here.
One look and ding ding ding rings “Bimbo” about me.
Cuz astute. (recognize “cuz” hafta look up the other word??)
(Thought it was About you?)
No …
The Problem is ME.
I am too Astute.
[Not easy. Not promiscuous. Not vapid. Not air-head. No over-sexualized/hysteronic/flirtatious/permissive displays… not from me.]
Expected.
From strangers.
And when alienated by a group, the subsequent disappointment….usually Outlined in Clear Detail … >>> I am not what they Imagined I was.
How dare I not be what they invented out of their own shallowness and vanity.
Yep… working out that Riddle since 14.
The Art of the week speaks from that age range.
(Last week working on FrozenTundra map I felt much much older in Nine-tail years…)
The Point of the Post Today… >>>Some theories REQUIRE RE-EVALUATION.
Side Point: My IMAGINATION doesn’t work that way.
I have a lot more fun with my imagination.
Case In-Point: I have been annoying the robots with examples of Avian Cargo Transport from older times (some fact -carrier pigeons and all… nursery rhymes… Money Python.) Good fun for me, but not such a fun read, as it’s all about getting reprimanded and corrected.
Robots had NO interest in speculating that the weight a pelican might carry would include the water around the fish (in cups, quarts, etc) not just pounds in fish.
Much like the added weight factor of swaddling cloth (more if wet or full) or cabbage, since patches of cabbage seems to be the SOURCE of the main object of stork transport and some confusion about which package might be delivered Could result in accidental cabbage delivery.
No interest considering if the whole strange stork behavior is a form of symbiotic surrogate parenting, (Brood Parasitism as the cuckoo do) or what happens to cabbage babies later? Where is the reward for the Stork?
AND the big joke for me is how tiny the sparrow is compared to the coconuts and even more so the tether… a rope thicker than the bird.
Then the coconut had to come out with that OH NO face!!!
Which …. it might have If it were being transported by small birds.
Robots had NO interest in speculating on whether the combined force of several swallows might qualify as bird power, as with engines and horses. Wing power?
And as far as mail-carrying I do think the Geococcyx (Roadrunner) would be a perfect candidate for cargo transport….
When it suddenly dawned on me…
THAT’s why Roadrunner is so far ahead of the Coyotes game…!!
IF >>> Roadrunner works as a delivery bird for A.C.M.E.
It all makes sense now.
Yes. I spent time making models and arranging experiments, just to get this from my friend when I sent it.
Traveler Chimiru 
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